let it burn [riley/muffs]

[Mackenzie Riley Dayne]

I was here and this was now and this was actually still happening. I wasn't worried about letting this guy I barely knew into my life only to have him turn right around and walk back out once he realised just how bad my attitude was. People always assumed that I was just so rough around the edges when they first met me and as time would go on I would loosen up to them and be this ridiculously friendly, peppy, nice person. Sorry, not how it worked. I loved my dad and I was still sarcastic with him when he didn't use an ounce of common sense. I love my uncle and I still shot my mouth off and told him just how much of an idiot he was when he was being stupid. Just because a person somehow managed to weasel their way into routine and my way of life didn't mean I suddenly did a stereotypical one eighty and became the best friend a girl, or guy, could ask for. No, it just meant that I had more access to all the stupid things a person did and I was better able to taunt them about it all hours of the day. I did have a soft side like any typical person. I just made it harder to get too and reserved it for the people who I was willing to feel vulnerable around.

My small size had always made me the target of much bigger and much more vicious kids. I didn't really think of myself as a bully and that was because I had enough experience with them to know better. I wasn't rude because I had some deep, hidden family problem or because I wanted the attention I received. I was rude because I didn't have the patience to tolerate a lot of things. Dad liked to tell his numerous ex girlfriends that I was just a sheltered young man and I hadn't been exposed to enough in my life to prepare me for handling anything that came my way so I reacted by pushing it out. Once more he was trying to use his horse raising skills to raise a kid and I wasn't the only one who didn't buy his excuses. I had been exposed to plenty of different types of people growing up in a cul-de-sac. I'd played with shy kids, mean kids, loud kids, smart kid, all types of kids and I had just grown weary of their dull behaviors and the way they were content to try to make everybody like them. Life wasn't a social networking site, you didn't have to be friends with everybody and their cat.

I was so caught up in everything that was happening to me and around me that I barely noticed he had taken his lips away to talk to me until his mouth was back on mine and I was trying to find my way back to where I'd been. I finally realised just what he had said to me and the meaning that lingered under the words dawned slowly until my stomach tightened sharply and I could feel an invisible blush rush across what seemed like every inch of me. As much as I loved the idea of being pressed against him in an unfamiliar bed with foreign sheets, I wasn't sure if I was quite ready to give that to him. Even though I no longer had the virginity I had started high school with, I was still stingy with my body. I didn't like people enough to bed hop from one person to the next and I didn't really feel that it was just something to give away. I had to be emotionally invested in someone before I would even consider going anywhere near that stage. I was fine with this little game of that we were playing right now but I was fully prepared to stop him or go down trying. I was no fool and I knew that if Leon really wanted something more, he was well able to take it from me. Even with these thoughts creeping in the back of my mind, I still wasn't scared of him. For all the aggression that he had shown, he seemed pretty well in control and besides, he didn't give off the vibe of a person who would take advantage of someone.

He had a strange way of making me want to kiss every last sarcastic smirk and smile right off his lips. It was almost like I couldn't bear the way his looks taunted me and almost dared me to do something about it. He was incredibly confusing and I was incredibly frustrated. I wanted to glare at him but at the same time I wanted to take those full lips with my own and forget that his strange quirks baffled me. I had to swallow a snarl as he just tipped his head to once side and made no move to put me down like I had commanded of him. Did he think this was a game? Did he forget that I always won? I drifted closer to his face and placed a chaste kiss on his mouth without a second of hesitation. In such a short time I had already become used to being able to just lean in and take whatever kind of kiss I wanted from him. Somewhere deep inside of me there was a small rational part yelling at me to stop taking the liberties, push him off and go home to think about everything instead of just jumping head first. It was exciting though and I didn't want to think about it. I wanted to give into one of my most primal urges. I wanted him and everything he had to offer me.

I tried my darndest to ignore the work tough fingers that swept slowly along the inside edge of my thighs. I needed to keep my wits about me if I was to keep fighting with him to put me down and I couldn't let him distract me so easily. My lips pushed into a thin line as I held my breath in a stupid attempt to even it out. I, obviously, only succeeded in making myself pant much more rapidly and a bit harder than I had been previously and part of me hoped that he wasn't taking it as the wrong sort of sign. I wouldn't let him win this round. I was still in control of myself. Sort of. Suspiciously, I narrowed my eyes at the way he purred out what seemed to be the introduction to a compromise and I shifted my upper body further backwards from him. There was no way I would be able to focus on finding a loophole in his offer if he managed to get too close and got his devilish mouth on me. Heck, I even had to remind myself to not stare him directly in the eye or I risked losing myself to the rising tide of desire. The question trickled from him quietly and I only narrowed my blue eyes further at him. For a long minute I just sat there looking at him and slowly mulling over just what my options where. I could always tell him yes and hope he went through with his part of the deal but I could also tell him no and try to twist my way out of his grip. I wasn't really up for taking a fall after having my day suddenly turn much brighter but it was an option I had to keep open.

"Fine," I grunted at him through tight lips before stiffening at the fist that twisted into my dripping shirt. I didn't care that my posture and my tone of voice made me seem like anything but thrilled about the agreement. I didn't even care that I had all but given up and let him win by agreeing. In my opinion, I was really the one winning. Not only was I going to, hopefully, be put down but I also, unsurprisingly, got what I had waited. "Down. Now," I prompted in a clipped tone while jabbing my heels sharply against the outside of his thighs. I was a man of my word and I expected him to be the same sort of man. I carefully kept what distance I could from him so that he couldn't use his sinful ways to persuade me to stay right where I was at his hips and even went as far as to suck my lips in to keep them a bit safer from him.

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